I am sick with flu. ugh. ugh. ugh. ugh.

I love him ♥
He loves me ♥

I'm happy ♥

Today is the day that the girls are coming up to go hiking and hot tubbing while watching the stars... and now what... ISOLATED THUNDER STORMS?! WHAT THE FRICK! It's been sunny and warm for the past WHOLE SUMMER and now THIS!!!!?!

blah.. hopefully it'll clear up before they get here... *sigh*

ps.... Barbie and the Three Musketeers looks like an Oscar Winner.... I really feel it. In my gut. This is it.

The front door swung open and I stood up to the sound of the bell ringing. I walk forward and before my very eyes stood a tall dark stranger. Oh what a tall dark man he was... so very STINKY! Holy fricking shit. This ghetto-ass dude walks into the store today smelling so strongly of the mary-jane that it filled up the entire store of that nasty funk.

He then brings with him a pile of some nasty ass clothing. Freaking A! My god! He brought 18 pairs of baggy, heavy, thick jeans, 4 baggy shirts, and 2 ridiculously ginormous jackets! Of course these are all "Sean Johns" and "Coogi"s ... or whatever the fuck these guys wear....

All a while I'm stewing in this guy's nasty funk trying to smile and remain polite.

I make up an account and start putting in his info and clothing into the computer.... The entire time I'm doing this, this man won't shut his fucking trap! Holy JESUS!

"So like, the woman here before always gives me a discount, like, man, she always hooks me up with a deal, and she hooks me up, y'know?" I just smile and nod. I tell him that with the amount of clothing he's brought in he'll be getting a 10% discount. But he still doesn't SHUT HIS FUCKING PIE-HOLE!!!! I ask him if Tuesday is ok, and he just nods then I give him his receipt and tell him to "have a good day."

He looks at the receipt and (it was a total of $166) and says "so you're going to hook me up, right? like $130?" I bite my tongue and tell him "I have no authority here, I'll ask my father- it'll be a 10% discount most likely, so $150"

"$130?"

"$150"

Then he looks at the receipt again and says "Hey- tomorrow?"

At that moment I wanted to lung over the counter and smash his head into the wall! STOP SMOKING SO MUCH POT, YOU FUCKING DIPSHIT! PAY MORE ATTENTION TO YOUR SURROUNDING AND STOP REPEATING YOURSELF LIKE SOME FUCKING STUPID ASSWIPE!"

Of course... I didn't. I tell him "With such a large amount, is Saturday all right?" He just shrugs and leaves........


not... the end.

I had to mark his clothing so that it doesn't get mixed up with others and touching his clothes made me feel so gross! My hands felt like they were covered in a thick layer of ghetto wannabe black pothead grime.... *sigh*

The next customer's clothing (a doctor) felt SO CLEAN afterwards, even while knowing that it was most likely blood that was splattered on the front of the shirts (heheheh)

Oh yeah... a quarter fell out of the pothead's back pocket... I kept it for myself in a spiteful way

THE END (for now)

PS! I DID NOT GET THE EAC JOB *SOB!!!!!* ToT

yes, you! you know who you are! i am suspicious of you!

and kelp, sorry i haven't commented on your pages! i'll be doing it now~

Yeah! I got a reply from the EAC on the job position of student assistant! Trying to set up an interview now! I hope I get this job!

and also....



is how I feel right now... but currently the moodiness is at an up because of the email! YEAH!

 i just noted my daily schedule.... *ahem*

i wake up around 6:30 am... eat... then go to work

get home around 4 pm ... eat... then i go to sleep

i wake up again... usually around 6:30 pm and shower and sometimes walk the dog... then i'm back to sleep

i've been sleeping so much and i find myself feeling so exhausted everyday... it's not like i'm doing anything horribly taxing, but i just feel painfully fatigued whenever i get home... i sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep

what is wrong with me?

a customer came in with a quilt comforter and told me that her husband had fallen and gotten blood on it. i told her that we will do our best to get out the blood. she was a little old grandmother who explained that this comforter was very expensive and that when her husband got blood on it she was so worried that the quilt would be damaged. i said some sort of platitude in return of "well, we will do all that we can to take out the blood and i hope that your husband is doing all right."

she looked at me and said "no, he's dead!"

i was so shocked that i couldn't think of anything to say.... she just kept on explaining how he died last year due to a poor heart....

what a shock.... ahahaha

on the outside
Name: Ellis
Birthday: March 4
School: UC Davis
Minor: English
Major: Studio Art
Current Location: Santa Rosa
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Black
Righty or Lefty: Right
Zodiac Sign: Pisces

on the inside
Your Heritage: Korean
Weakness: Arrogance- I am so very self-serving and self-loving
Goals: Work for a gaming company designing characters and making enough money off of that to survive!
Regrets: Not working harder in high school
Change one thing about your life: ..... I don't know
Relieve Stress: Reading, shopping, and hanging out with the girls (and one other thing that is inappropriate to mention)
Hardest thing ever dealt with: My parents.
Things that upset you: Narrow minded people

yesterday, today, tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Ugh... time for work
Your bedtime: 12am-1am
Your most missed memory: Camping with the family

your picking
Pepsi or Coke: I don't drink soda.
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group dates: Single date when I feel like having a little alone time- but group dates are fun!
Lipton Tea or Nestea?: Neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee (with vanilla syrup and half/half) yuuum

do you?
Do drugs? Have tried- not worth it
Have a crush: Not really
Think you've been in love: No
Want to get married: That would be nice
Believe in yourself: Usually
Think you're a health freak: No- ahahahhahaa

in the last month
Drank alcohol: Yes
Gone to the mall: Yes
Eaten Sushi: Yes
Gone skating: No =(
Dyed your hair: No
Done something exciting: What counts as exciting?

have you ever?
Played a stripping game: Yes
Gotten beaten up: Does a spanking by my parents count?
Changed who you were to fit in: I try not to- but most likely I have.
Hid something from someone: Of course

getting old
Age you're hoping to be married: When I feel confident enough for it.
Age to start having children: When I forget the BC (ahahahaha- but really)
Want to travel to: Europe (in general)

perfect mate
Best Eye Color: No preference
Best Hair Color: No preference
Short or Long Hair: As long as it's clean

what were you doing?
1 minute ago: Working
1 hour ago: Working
1 week ago: Working
1 year ago: Was in Korea... working (lawl)

finish the sentence
I LOVE: my family, my friends, my life, and myself.
I FEEL: great now- my life has changed for the better.
I HATE: regretting so much, but what can I do now?
I MISS: my girls and my man.
I NEED: work harder for my future.

i am hooked- deeply and madly....

i can barely put into words how crazy i am for him.

his words, his deep and such carefully crafted thoughts... oh!~ makes me fall over with such a fever!

george r. r. martin... i am yours!

what the hell is wrong with me?
why am i so moody?
it's not the hormones (far from that time)...
and i can't pinpoint any other reason... i just feel so snappy and so sullen... god. damn. it!

So the other day a thought came to my mind... it is rare but it does happen:

I have these random pangs of pain throughout my body sometimes. Sometimes it's a sharp shock here or there and other times it's duller... like yesterday while I was driving it felt like there were two very strong magnets on either side of my torso straining to get to each other through my ribs.

The pain isn't too bad, it's not distracting and most of the time I don't even wince. I feel it and I just do my best to ignore it. I always assumed that it was normal because the pain was never crippling and I never found myself getting horribly distracted by it.

But do other people feel these random pains, too? I doubt that I can be the only one. And I've always had a relatively clean bill of health every time I've been to the hospital.

I also have muscle spasms. Sometimes in my arms or my legs. Every once in a while I have it on my face (near my eyes or my mouth). Patty said it had something to do with calcium or the lack-there-of...

Maybe I should go get a physical.


PS. I am feeling horribly sullen and snappy. I feel very temperamental at the moment and I don't know why.

i miss my friends. i miss davis. i miss my apartment. i miss him.

damn it- home is so... blah.

I've decided that I need to reevaluate my life. Yesterday morning (1 pm on a Saturday is morning) my friends and I were out for a drive to get breakfast and due to the rain, bad traction on tire, and faulty breaks we ended up flying (no exaggeration) off an off-ramp and into an embankment. It was a full car, 5 people. I was in the back left and didn't get the brunt of the impact. We ended up hitting a tree on the right side of the car and a large dent was left on both doors.

Luckily, the tree didn't shatter any of the windows and most of us got knocked around. My friend, Alexandra, who was on the right back was knocked up against the glass and ended up with a mild concussion. Sara, who was in the front passenger seat merely got a scratch on her foot. Jeff, the driver, was stunned but remained calm and quick to respond for help. Carolyn, who was in the middle was the quickest to recover from the shock. Overall, most of us were just shook up but nothing too damaging.

This accident made me realize that life is just goddamn too short. I really understand the meaning of "life flashing before my eyes." It was like a horrible dream- I could see the car fall off the side and the tree and grass rushing towards us. I closed my eyes and covered my head with my arms. I have never been so shocked in my life.

It was over so quickly and there really was nothing I could do. No control. No anything.

Today, I have car accident hangover... whiplash of some sort. It feels surreal, like it never happened. My left arm is sore and I'm having trouble picking up heavy objects and my back and neck is stiff. I have work for almost all of my classes and with this mental setback I feel immensely overwhelmed. But, it has helped me realize a few things:

Sara said later, that she thought (during the crash) "I wouldn't mind dying with these people. These people are good people"... and I realized, that I agreed. I didn't really know Carolyn all that well (having just met her that morning) and Alexandra is a new friend, but- I feel that if I did die yesterday then I would have died amongst friends who are good people. Don't get me wrong, I am VERY happy that I did not die, but if that was to be my day... it would have been with people who I love and who loved me, too.

I am grateful for everything that life has given me. I grateful for my family, friends, and my health. Even though I love to contradict and argue with God, I'm grateful that God kept us safe that day. There were so many good Samaritans that day. Almost every other car that stopped at the off-ramp asked us if we needed help and even a nice couple got out and helped us out of the wreckage and took Carolyn and Alexandra to the hospital.

Thank you, life, and thank you, friends.

edit:
picture of said car-

AT&T's internet sucks!!!! DAMN YOU!!!

I'm using the apartment complex's internet and it's soooo slow! My housemates and i are paying for an internet service that just does not WORK! Guess what I'll be doing today after class... calling AT&T and getting outsourced to either India or the Philippines and trying to explain to a very pitiful young man or woman, who really doesn't want to talk to me (or fully grasps English), why my internet doesn't work!

goodbye- i'm done fuming... for now

soooo- apparently North Korea is about to launch their first MISSILE! oh snap! Korea and Japan are on tight watch!

and here's my entry for the Fanime contest- hopefully I'll get in!


woo hoo

Let's pray for the 17 lost in Montana. I hope they find peace. Their families will need all the help they can get.

Trying to get a compliment from my mother is like trying to squeeze water out of a rock. She is such a tough woman to please.

Got some doodles...

fleshing out characters from my story "The Academy" (tentative title)


and i really love NCIS- it is such a cool show

Last official week of class for Winter 2009 quarter! This is going to be a hectic week!

oh yeah- I turned 21 last week, March 4! ok! bye bye

That I have a $500 warrant for my arrest out right now?

And do you know why????... it's because the paper work for my dog license didn't get through and the officials in my county are irresponsible and the cops have too much time on their hands.

I am so badass now, aren't I?